Stuck in square one

Stuck in square one


To end the sermon and release the patient pastors, dad says, “Go ahead and say hello to some people and we will take a break” just like that.
The translator translates..
The funny thing was, the Chinese people stood up and turned to their neighbor and said “Hello!” in a sad but sympathized manner. It was almost a joke, not how they spoke, but that they followed him exactly. A lot of things are taken literally here.
A few minutes later and butler walks in and flicks the light on and off. For a nano-secound my hands perspired and my eyes widened. A man in a uniform walks into an illegal meeting with ex-prisoners and “cult” leaders and his uniform color just happens to be green. How would you react?
Yesterday we arrive at our final destination: a resort in southern China right on the beach. Papa and I took a walk along the beach. The sand was coarse because of the crushed shell. We walked away from the buildings and towards blissful nothingness.
We found fishing boats laying on the shore. Rafts made from long, bent pieces of wood held together with rope and fisherman’s hope (you might say). I don’t know how such things stay together. They looked so primitive. So B.C. or at least B.20th century. “Premature” if you will. They had oars leaning against each raft, and a little flag too.
And the unanswerable question came.
“why am I here?”
I suddenly see God seeing me seeing myself. I am just a couple of pieces of honest wood tied together with hope. Not even my hope. His hope. As he sees me seeing myself, I am sure He sees my reaction of
“uhh,” “eww” and “grow up”
I seem so premature.
will I ever grow up?
will I ever become the guy I’ve heard God talk about with his angels?
“There’s my son, isn’t he beautiful?”
I’m staring at my pile of wood.
God is staring at his romance cruise.
Why am I here?
He has hope for me.
that is enough for now
Saturday and Sunday night I am going to some youth meetings to share about God knows what. (I say that because he actually does.)
pray for me.
=)