its funny how you can forget there's a world outside yourself

outside yourself
where the trees keep growin' and the cars keep goin'
without you there
where the one who loves you keeps on living

-azure rey

last noche i was lying on my bed watching some MST3K episode and eating some danmarino
i closed my eyes.
i couldnt fall asleep.
i couldnt pass the second stage of sleep.
my eyes were closed, my body was tired, but my mind was racing.
it was so weird.
i was incredibly surprised at the speed.
i think in a nano-second i saw all the new people i had met that day (in mcallen) individually re-introduce themselves.

"Hi, im audry"
and i quickly judged them and labled them like you would in a video game (if you created each character).
"Hi, i'm Audry"
-cute, nice outfit, soft voice, big dork
"Hey man i'm Mark"
-brother of cute dork, also lacks social skills
"Hi, names Aaron"
-nice tats, they mean us, wait...what was his name?

it was like my mind was a rubix and some bored spirit was testing his skills
stop it!
i groaned and tossed and turned for i dont know how long.
i knew my body was at rest because when i moved it was heavy. like bricks.
bag of bricks in skin.

"God please make it stop!"
i was afriad to look at the clock, somehow i knew it was 4am.
the weekend is supposed to be for sleep and social life.
now that i think about it, maybe it was the candy..
maybe they added cocaine.
...or sugar

i dont remember when i actually fell asleep. but i suppose no one ever knows that.
i had a dream that i was with Mrs Hanson and some random people at an airport, a really really big one.
she left me in charge of getting these two guys on their next flight

"the need to be at the gate by 11:30"

she said
neither of them had ever flown before
one guy went looking for his love to tell her how he felt before he flew, naturally i followed him, we were supposed to stick together.
it was almost 12 and he still hadnot found her.

"oh my god, its ten till! we gotta go!"

i said
when we arrived at the gate i discovered the plane didnt leave until 1:30
=i wonder why she told us to be here so early?= i thought
that was my dream

interestingly enough i woke up early, with energy and alertness, as if my night had passed undesterbed.