WZ in HD!!

i had a cool idea today,

so tomorrow i'm supposed to be getting my HD video-camera in the mail,
so i was thinking to meself,
"what will i do with it?"

then it came to me,
make a video about White Zebra!
but then i thought it sounded to cliche, like would they even want to have a video about them.

so i called esteban and he was like,
"naw dude, its a cool idea, i would do it"
not real enthusiastic about it but enough to keep the idea around,
i thought it and then he said it,
"call adrian and see what he thinks"
so i did, and he thought it was a great idea, he had talked about doing something like that before.

sweet!

so morris should be getting my message today because i will mos def need his help and ideas.
its like an art project! with music!
our first film!

sunglasses

he always get here late and we dont do anything the first 10 min.
like it's 7:20 and he's just glued to his computer.
good mornin.
computer Lit.

i miss Kansas City.
i wish i could spend the afternoon with all my FMA friends,
i wish i could go to a EGS service tonight.

but
i'm not going to .
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i dont really talk in the morning, (i type lol!!)
you would have figured my parents would just not ask me things,
"what's goin on today, son?"
"........."
"what's on the agenda? =0!"
".....uh....."
"ready for school??"
"mm...uh...sss....hummm....."
as hard as i try to project, everything i say is mumble,
like looking at someone through a glass vase,
just blury
i guess i dont answer most of em.

another hurricane?

today i left my ipod at the house this morning so i was at school the whole morning without music.
at first im like
"damn!"
but secretly i was like,
"im going to enjoy this"
and im pretty happy i left it.

mind you, i am listening to it right now
but
driving to school in silence felt really good.
my ears were able to "breath" while i walked to class if you know what i mean.
it turned out to be ok.
whadyaknow

i leave my phone at home a couple times a month (on purpose), but never my ipod.
i just forgot the treasure of silence. if i had more instrumental music to listen to as i sleep, i might never have silence.
when my ipod is with me i just have to play it,
what am i? wasteful?
never!

***just forgetful i suppose

intelligence

last night was a good show.
because Rush is such a big place we were able to dance without stepping on each other.
although i hit morris
lol.
oops.
during the intro to "yellow flies" they broke into "My Sharona!" for like ten seconds, that was fun.
carlos and i looked at each other like
"WTF??"

in the parking lot there were a line of cars coming in for like two hours.
like just pulling in, with tejano or rap really loud.
it was like the dollar theater.
they would drive near the door and just look at us, like
"what up"
i'm sorry we werent invited to your tailgate party, i wish i could drive in circles for 2 hours and call it socializing.

mind you we were at Rush.
there was already a good number of cars in the lot before the got there.
it was like when kids walk in a straight line to lunch holding hands.
only with p-diddy
only in cars.
i'm just not getting it yet.

by the time white zebra was done, there were only like 15-20 of us.
i liked that.
it's weird but at least once a day i see someone at school who looks just like someone i knew at ihop.
actually it just happened right now.

listening to Sean Lennon right now.
he's got a nice voice.
a japanese- english singer.

when i am at the pearly gates, this will be on my videotape

i need more patience,
i'm seriously getting pretty frustrated with people down here.
not like "persons"
like people.

when i encounter someone who really annoys me two images come up in my mind.
1. -=-=-my tallest finger flying solo right in their face
2.=-=-=jesus smiling.

this might amuse you, but im really serious.
God remind me to take my jesus pill.

i'm trying to enjoy my brownsville life, really i am.
i was telling somebody the other day how like, to find long lasting friends in browntown you have to really look (its small enough for clicks to exist, ya know?)
but once you find those people, you dont wanna leave 'cause they're amazing.

i want to go to that orphanage in san benito sometime.

i went to target yesterday and saw this camcorder there for 129$ and i had 140$ in pocket, when asked to buy it they didnt have any.
isnt that just karmatic?
(karma + matic = karmatic)
i didnt even want one before i walked in the store.
and now i need one.

so my new music -
a Jimi Hendrix Album (very happy with it)
a Deep Purple Album (havent spent enough time with it)

i joined this film club at school.
we'll see how that goes

weird tension

im feelin this weird tension growing.
it's like bottled sprite that's been shoke too much.
like how the earth rumbles before a volcano.
the feeling a kid gets when he's about to be yelled at.

i feel like it's coming from the people or culture around me,
and all that anger is against God.
not everywhere, not everybody, not even the majority of the time,
but i feel more and more often this raising up of fist at our invisible Lover.
in Politics
at School
in some of my favorite music.

it's kinda scaring me.
i've never been a prophet, or a fortune teller,
i'm just saying i gotta feeling.

i dunno.
i REALLY REALLY REALLY hate confrontation.
maybe thats why im so sensitive to the tension.
do you feel it though?

computer lit. for the blind

i am seriously being taught how to minimize a window.
seriously?
serious.
and its 8 in the mornin.

today i wore this cool green headband,
and before i got out of my car i looked in the mirror and muttered something like,
"i look like a kid"
i guess what shocked me was the fact that i wanted to dress my age, like dress more like a grown up.
dear god,
am i growing up?

whatever ,
i wore it anyway